Kan?

Apparently things do get better.
I felt happiness. Jarang gua happy time shopping. Yesterday was fun. Tempatan Fest was fun. Habiskan duit ni fun sebenarnya, cuma part sedih bila duit yang dihabiskan tu duit engko sendiri sebab lepastu  mesti mereput. Jap tarik nafas hahahahah. Dalam wallet macam biasa tinggal berapa helai duit seringgit je. Purata masa untuk wallet aku tebal adalah tak lebih seminggu.

So yeah my point is, things get better, things will be better. Kita cuma kena tunggu je lah. Sabar tak sabar tu depends kat diri sendiri sebab bahagia tak datang sekelip mata ewahhh.


Ni ada satu cerita harapan palsu hiburan. Elok je tadi aku bukak whatsapp group class cakap ada flyers bagitau cuti diploma dilanjutkan sampai 11Januari. Part yang aku boleh cakap kepala hanggek dia, lepastu masuk lagi sorang budak cakap tu rumors je. Lagi satu part aku boleh cakap the most kepala hanggek moment bila sorang budak lagi cakap flyers tu ditujukan pada budak diploma Kelantan/Terengganu je. Fakap tak harapan palsu ni? Fakapla jugak tapi aku tam ambik port sangat sebab aku dah mereput cuti hahah rindu aroma puncak weii
mmkaybye.

Sial la Jai

Okay it's like this.
Engko dah plan baikkk punya itinerary dari pagi sampai malam so you can actually do what you really want to do but then bencana datang and it all crashed.
So time time macam ni lah engko kena sedar engko berpijak kat bumi yang bukan engko punya, engko guna masa yang engko takkan sempat kejor balik, dan engko buang masa je plan sebab semua benda takkan jadi macam engko nak dari awal lagi sebab bukan hak engko nak plan plan segala cucuk langit jadah tu.
Aku emo ni, aku emo gila gila punya sebab semua plan aku tak jadi.
Let's just hope tomorrow is a better day.
Penatlah mereput.
Penat sangat.

kill me

You're killing me
I'm losing my conscience
I don't even know if this is it, if what I'm doing is right.

I'm starting to live without you, like I did once, when you're not here with me. But what if you come back? What if you decided you're not quitting? Will we be like the way we were before?
And what if you didn't? Will I be okay without you? Will you forget? Will you forget everything that happened? Everything that I've done? Will you forget me?
Please don't. But if you ever did, then I wish for you to be happy, even if not with me.

Sengaja, tak Sengaja.

Okay I lied.
My post before this one was a lie that I never  intended. I did uninstalled both Twitter and Instagram but I just can't live with it hahahaha sakai kan? Tak sempat satu malam gua dah install balik dua-dua, macam palat hahahaha kbai.

So these past two weeks gua asyik rasa tak sedap hati, kurang selera makan, seram sejuk that I don't even know kenapa dan apa sebabnya. Hati nak tinggalkan puncak for midsem break pun rasa berat je. Nak kata sayang sangat puncak tu tidaklah, tapi sayang kat orang-orang kat sana tapi nak gelabah apa kan midsem je haha tapi tu lah, mana tahu, tak sempat cakap goodbye, kan?

I love you, I didn't know how, I didn't know why, I never know why I can't stop even though I need to.
Fuck my life, I just love surrounding myself with shits I can never put together.
Semuanya berantakan.


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