flowers bloom

As years go by, I no longer loved the idea of turning my feelings into words. I no longer know how to craft words beautifully along with the feelings that I had. I no longer know how to cheer my heart with words that translates what I am feeling. 

Today, I am in love. 

Today, I am not alone.

Today, I have someone clouding up my mind with all these beautiful thoughts.

Today, until forever, this someone will fill my lungs with love, that I will never had in another life.

t&c applied

Love; a disease.

a man and a  woman is the best candidate to be in love and face this disease.

to be in love is the same as to be diagnosed you are having a disease.

love is a disease. 

the side effects are rindu, extreme level of missing each other without any cure, even if you are side by side, even when your eyes meet. You will never stop missing each other. You keep longing for their smell, their eyes, their voice, their hands touching yours, their fingers caressing your cheeks.

And being in love is so tiring, so suffocating. but you keep wanting more of that feeling, because you love them. because you love yourself when you are with them. You love the fact that you guys are together.

I really hope this journey is blessed. I hope we are stronger than we are ever before.

I love you, I love us.

sparkles

thank you Allah, for answering my prayers.

thank you Allah, for bringing him back to me, after all these years.

thank you Allah, for the love that you have given me to cure all the pain.

please, don't let this be temporary.

I am glad he showed up. I felt what it is like to be loved, again. I was drown in love, again.

in it

10th June, exactly 13 days after the first time we talked to each other.

Slowly, the flowers are blooming. Keep showering it with love and attention, and it will grow to the rest of my body. Only then, you will see how deep in will we be.

what if

It's dated May 30th. Marks three years of me being alone and out of love for men. I once even  decided to never fall in love so that I would never get married but what will life be if I am alone kan I don't wanna die alone oh god.

However, today well not exactly today. Last two days, my DM was knocked by someone I knew since a few years back. It made my heart fluttered. It's still fluttering. It will stay fluttered until I decide that I don't want to believe anymore.

I hope this is love.